Healing

I decided to take a break from this blog for a while.  Not that I am some sort of super blogger with a massive following, but nonetheless, I felt like I had to step back.  I just couldn't document the daily struggles in my head and my slow melt-down - it made it too real to actually write it down.  I was doing much better just ignoring everything and hoping I would just wake up one day and have everything back to normal.  Except normal would be before M was born, and I certainly don't want that.  So I had to learn to adjust to my new normal.  And in my new normal I sometimes get pissed at my husband and question every decision I make regarding my baby.  I'm not 100% better yet, but I am trying.