Trying to stay positive....no, really I am.

There are lots of other blogs I read, most of which are written by women dealing with their own fertility problems. I was reading one of those yesterday and her recent post really forced me to look at myself and the way I've been dealing with things. To take some direct quotes from her blog:

"...few people ever stop to ask 'Why am I so blessed? Why did I get so lucky?' - many of us assume we deserve the good things in our lives, that for whatever reason, the blessings are earned. And the bad things - that is when we question and rage and scream at the universe or God. But that if we are not going to question our good fortune, we have no right to question our bad fortune either."

And also:

"These are gifts that I've been given, not luxuries I was owed. I am grateful, but I need also to be more thankful for these beautiful things and this wonderful life. To stop dwelling in the negative, worrying over what is to come and fretting over the inconsequential. To rejoice, be happy, appreciate, give thanks."

Wow, so true. I didn't have the best childhood, and I went through a lot of trauma during my college years. But now, I am happy and reasonably healthy. I have a wonderful husband who makes me as happy now as he did 7 years ago when we met. I recently purchased a beautiful home with lots of land. I have 2 adorable dogs (well, I think they're cute at least). I have a fairly stable job while others around me have lost their jobs or are in fear of losing them. I don't know what I have done to deserve all of this. I am so grateful, but I don't think I take enough time to really think about how grateful I am. Things could be so much worse. I am going to make time each day to reflect on the good things in my life, and hopefully that will prevent me from dwelling on the bad.