First the bad. Yesterday was just an emotional day. I woke up and hopped on Facebook to find my ex-boyfriend (the only guy I was ever serious about before S) and his wife are expecting twins. I don't know why this bothered me so much, especially since we dated 9 years ago. I guess I'm just jealous, and that's only human. The rest of the day I was just so moody it wasn't funny. I constantly felt like I was on the verge of tears. S knew something was wrong, but I just didn't have it in me to explain. How would he take me crying over an ex?
Today my temperature dropped again, and I'm still not convinced I ovulated. It's actually kinda funny in the mornings now when I take my temperature because I'm concentrating so hard....like that will actually make it higher or something.
Now for the good. I love my husband so much. He is so kind and patient with me. I may be the moodiest person I know, even long before infertility issues. He never takes it personally and always tries to make me feel better. All he wants is for me to be happy...how lucky am I?
This weekend we are having a BBQ which will be the first time most of our friends have seen our new house. I'm sure we will have a great time. It always helps to spend time with our awesome friends and get my mind off of our problems.
Friday, July 17, 2009
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