bit of an emotional breakdown

I've been waiting for the nurse to call me back to tell me what to do next. I was thinking the phone call would go something like "feel free to start clomid tomorrow...have fun." Well she called and said I'll have to call back in a couple of weeks to check on insurance authorization. Hold up...what??? So we can't do anything this month??? She said no. The earliest would be next month. Well cue the tears right then. It doesn't help that I'm emotional anyway, and I've got my mom on the other line saying dumb things like "if it's meant to be it will happen." About 10 minutes later it occurs to me that we were not going to do IUI this month, that we were just going to try robot sex again, but with the good drugs. So I call back and leave a message, complete with voice cracking. It was pretty pathetic really. The billing lady called and said I was right, we didn't need pre-authorization for robot sex (how weird would THAT be?). So finally the nurse calls back and gives me my list of drugs to start. Oh my God, I think I need a drink.