Talk about overwhelming...

I just got back from my first appointment with the RE. She was great, my nurse was great, everyone that worked there was great. That still didn't stop the feelings of being 5 seconds away from bursting into tears the entire time I was there. I was just completely overwhelmed with information, options, and kindness. I have never felt like I had so many people rooting for me than I did today.

The RE thinks I have PCOS, which is what I've thought all along. She wants me to do a 2 hour glucose tolerance test along with some others, to confirm that. If that points to PCOS like she thinks, she will put me on Metformin. At that point I have some choices to make: 1. Metformin + injectables + trigger + timed intercourse (TI); 2. Metformin + Clomid + trigger + TI; 3. Metformin + injectables + trigger + IUI; or 4. Metformin + Clomid + trigger + IUI. Wow. That's a lot to think about.

I'm not gonna lie, the thought of giving myself injections, or worse, S giving me injections, freaks me out a little. However, maybe it's time to be aggressive. Haven't I waited long enough? Either way I'll be giving myself the trigger shot, so what difference does it make if there are a few more. As far as TI or IUI go, part of me says to go with TI first. But I just learned that if we get pregnant and miscarry, the bastard insurance company will basically reset how long we've been trying. You have to try for 1 year before IUI will be authorized, but they will count the initial pregnancy as day 1 all over again. Since I have to go on COBRA (S is getting a new job), the benefit coordinator at the RE's thought I shouldn't waste too much time on TI since we have the coverage for IUI. Ugh! So much to think about.

Despite feeling overwhelmed, I am happy to be moving forward and have a plan. I think I'm going to come out of the infertility closet soon, because if I learned nothing else today, I learned that there is nothing to be ashamed of. And I know I'm going to need lots of support going through this. Even though S has been awesome, it won't hurt to have more people in my corner. In case I haven't said it before, fuck infertility! I am not going to let that bitch beat us!