I'll do anything

As expected, FF was wrong and took away my ovulation date a few days after it gave it to me. I'm now on CD 40 with no ovulation or period in sight. I know we haven't been trying long, but I want this so bad. I will do anything. I feel like this is payback for all the things I've done wrong in my life. I am so sorry for those things. If I could take them back I would, but I can't. Please, please, please just let me have a baby so that I can give it the life I didn't have growing up. I have so much love to give, and I want to be a good mother.