Countdown begins

This is the last week of my birth control pills. After Saturday I am done for with them for quite a while, and this thought is bringing on a lot of emotions. One, I am excited. Excited isn't even the right word - I don't think I can wait to get pregnant. But that worries me too. It could be hard, and by getting excited I'm just setting myself up for disappointment. I'm also afraid that I am going to have complications like I had the last time I went off the pill. I don't want to end up in the ER again thinking I am dying because of a ruptured ovarian cyst. Ugghhh! So many different thoughts running through my head....